Infertility sucks

It sucks big time. There’s really no way of sugar coating it. It just sucks.  I wish more people understood that. 

 

 It’s a silent journey between spouses.  Most people don’t have a clue what is going on—or realize how incredibly difficult it is.  Every month you hope and pray.  And every month you have to deal with the crushing disappointment. 

  

It’s exhausting.  It’s painful. It’s embarrassing. 

 

 My husband and I are approaching our 3^rd wedding anniversary in a few weeks. If you had asked me three years ago where we would be I had this perfect image of our life in a cute little house with an adorable toddler running in the yard.  Maybe there’d be another on the way and a dog wagging its tail.  We have part of the picture.  We finally found our home and we do have two crazy puppies running in the yard.  But it’s missing something.  Something so huge that it leaves tears burning behind my eyes and my heart so full of pain….

 

Yet I continue about my life with a smile on my face.  My husband and I hold hands and share a special glance. I take the deep breath to hold back the tears as I celebrate a friend’s wonderful announcement of a new pregnancy. I put on a brave face when another clueless person asks when we’re going to get started with that family already…

 

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I feel alone yet I know I’m not.  I know there are so many women who deal with this every day, many longer than I have. I wish I knew who they were.  I wish I could run to their office when something just sets me off.  I wish I could call them when I get the bad news that this cycle is a bust for my treatment plan.

 

It’s made me realize that we really have no idea what is going on in a person’s life.  Remember that when you are dealing with someone who’s being bitchy or annoying.  You never know what they may be dealing with that day.

 

Why am I sharing this?  I don’t know. I’ve struggled with sharing a lot of this for a long time now.  But, it hasn’t done me much good keeping it inside.  Maybe if more people knew how painful it was they wouldn’t treat it so carelessly.

 

It just sucks.

 

 

Hiya, Fellow

This is what love looks like. And love is what this little guy is going to feel forever ever.

If Mr. Cutie-pie is anything like his father, he'll be as handsome as a prince and as funny as a jester...

But if he can't tell a joke to save his life, that's ok. W'll love him just the same. Forever and ever.

xo,

Kate

He's Here!

Early (early!) Thursday morning, LC's son made his appearance. And what an appearance it was! He just couldn't wait to get out to meet his parents and family but I'll let LC share the story when she's able.

For now, just know he's perfect. A little pink specimen of perfection. And even though he's a boy, he'll always be an honorary member of Girlfriends. :)

xoxo,

Kate

Baby you're a firework...

I saw this video on www.videogum.com yesterday and have not stopped loving it for the past 24 hours, which says a lot because I get bored easily (step up your game boys, step it up). Side Note: If you don’t look at videogum at least once a week you are missing out on life (yes, internet is life). I whole heartedly miss their “LOST” recaps…

But this kid is amazing- I really, really want to have a baby like this someday because my self esteem would be through the roof due to his laughter. If this kid loves ripping up paper this much can you imagine how funny he would find me!?!?! I want this in my life ALL THE TIME!!! Enjoy.

~M